Dear Bunny Wabbit
This blog was started for you. And since our life revolves entirely around you, this space should have a LOT of stories about your shenanigans. Your are, after all, the Jungle Mama's son. Apologies.
I'd like to make excuses, but there really shouldn't be any. I still Facebook way too much for my liking. I loaded the Fb app back onto my Blackberry, but I only log in when I am stuck in a queue somewhere. Otherwise I keep it logged off and have deactivated the email notifications so I am not disturbed with a PING every time someone replies to a post or likes a photo. Even then, I feel I log in way too much - but there are some awesome articles and posts out there, it's hard to not check in and see if I've missed out on anything. I especially like the inspirations by Writer's Write (Amanda Patterson) who I'd like to credit for the inspiring and motivational messages to keep writing. Most times though, you and I are fighting for the iPad and iPod (you call it oPod :) with Dada. Pinterest too has its hold on me - but I made you a wooly scarf as penance (never mind the million times I yelled at you when you kept yanking at the wool).
You are almost 3 years old now. I cannot believe how time has flown. You really love your animated movies. You started of with Cars and that love story continues even today (I know the fortune Dada spends on the themed toys for you - we got Finn Mcmissile this weekend, to add to Francesco Bernoulli, and the McQueen and Tow Mater duo we still can't find). But since then, you've watched Monsters Inc., Finding Nemo, Cars 2, Rio, Toy Story 1 to 3, and How To Train Your Dragon a million gazillion times. You weren't too thrilled with The Lion King, a bit sad considering we're in Africa :) Buzz Lightyear is your hero and when you first started trying to blast me away with your "death ray", I thought you had some sore on your arm that you were pointing out to me :D You love to shout, "To Infinity and Beyond...!", sometimes quite late into the night, and we have to worry about concerned neighbours knocking on our door.
You still hate to go to bed "on time" (8:30pm). As a result I end up telling you stories and singing songs, and falling into a very deep sleep along with you from sheer exhaustion. Then Dada will walk in around 10pm to wake me up for dinner, which I will reluctantly do because I hate for him to eat alone (and he won't eat without me :) Most days you give us a rough time while getting ready for school, but you have your good days too. You simply LOVE Saturdays. You jump out of bed without having to be coaxed out. I wish we could do more with you that's "outdoorsy" but the few times we've ventured out in cold weather, you've ended up getting a bad cough. We do have fun in the garden though. I love the warmth of the sun on my back as I do the weeding while you quietly dig up all the stuff I've carefully planted. I love seeing you enjoy the mud and running through the spray of water as I water the garden. I cannot wait for summer!
Dada says you have my food tastes - the sweet tooth and the carb fixation. I hope I can also teach you to love the wholesome stuff too, especially homegrown stuff. It's what I saw my mum do growing up and I want the same for you. Sweet stuff and carbs even I get sick of very quickly! You love gadgets and have found your way around the iPad and iPod very quickly. We can only hope for any benefits, as in our time numerous articles were also written about TV addiction, and our generation turned out just fine (I think). Everything in moderation I think, and on a weekday you don't watch more than 1.5 hours of TV. You talk quite well I feel. You are always asking, "Mama what's that?" or "What you doing?" or "Oh oh...I made a mess." You know your school prayer, which was also MY school prayer (the picture is from the same song sheet I sang from, aged 6 to 12, clicked on my visit there):
I am not proud of the times I have shouted like a lunatic or shown my irritation. I am not a perfect human being, nor am I setting you a good example by making excuses for such behaviour. I feel only deep sorrow and regret for this. My impatience will lose me my loved ones and I wish I could unlearn what I experienced growing up. Did I mention how much you love your Appacha (Daddy) and Ammachi? You barely know your Thatha and Paatima, but I hope you will get an opportunity for that, and that you'll learn to speak Tamil and make your Dada proud. You and Daddy seem to be kindred spirits. He will not allow me to scold you in ANY form and spoils you rotten. You are quite a brat in his presence. You refer to Xyza as "my sister". We haven't visited there in quite a while - every weekend something comes up, and the main reason we moved to SA was because we wanted you to be raised amongst your cousins. I still hold hope for that. I want you to have a good relationship with your uncle as your Dada had with his, and I have with my aunts. All I can say to that is, que sera sera.
I promise to write more my darling, but even if I don't, just know that you are in my thoughts ALL the time, and I hope I am doing my best to help you "Reach for the Skies". :) Umma.