No, this is not a post about walking around the house without a bra (though when breast feeding it IS rather tempting!).
Being a stay-at-home mum is tough. You can do all the physical labour of the domestic life - entirely out of love too, not just cos you have to, and yet, feel like you're NEVER quite doing enough unless you're making some money for your child's future. Why do I feel so unappreciated? What do I want? A medal from my child? My body is confined within these four walls but my mind is in a million different places - all of them involve me making something out of my life and making a LOT of money so my child may never lack for anything. This is the true Out-of-Body Experience. It overwhelms you. My little one is barely 6 months old and I told myself I would stay at home till he is AT LEAST a year old. As hard as it is going to be to leave him in the care of strangers, I don't wanna stare blankly at him 18 years hence when he asks about college tuition.
And now...I have severe back pain from all the stress. I can't even carry him without wincing in pain.
Being a stay-at-home mum is tough. You can do all the physical labour of the domestic life - entirely out of love too, not just cos you have to, and yet, feel like you're NEVER quite doing enough unless you're making some money for your child's future. Why do I feel so unappreciated? What do I want? A medal from my child? My body is confined within these four walls but my mind is in a million different places - all of them involve me making something out of my life and making a LOT of money so my child may never lack for anything. This is the true Out-of-Body Experience. It overwhelms you. My little one is barely 6 months old and I told myself I would stay at home till he is AT LEAST a year old. As hard as it is going to be to leave him in the care of strangers, I don't wanna stare blankly at him 18 years hence when he asks about college tuition.
And now...I have severe back pain from all the stress. I can't even carry him without wincing in pain.
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